..To Get Her Ness..

Yuli - Me - Paulin @ Mal TA - 230510

It's great thing to have an opportunity in helping others. It's my new experience. Surprised when I knew that my friend (Paulin) was coming to Jakarta. I knew it from his husband (Oscar). She arrived on Friday morning, 140510... and Oscar told me on that day, too.

Actually, I was busy preparing an event for 150510, and thinking how to meet one of my friend from Surabaya, too (ko' Ferry). Suddenly, ko' Oscar called me on YM and said that Paulin is coming to Jakarta to accompany her uncle facing the operation of his eye.

Woow... arrange for ko' Ferry had not finished yet, then the new one's coming... I was thinking and thinking while working on my computer. Taaadaaa!!!! Suddenly ko' Ferry came on YM... He said that he had been on Surabaya...he asked my office address, cause he wanted giving me something from Linda... Koro Bali Nuts... i love it very much... hehehe... then at the evening his office driver came and gave the nuts.. ^_^

When i knew that ko' Ferry had been in Sby, i felt rather free than before, cause i just had to arrange my time for Paulin only. I called and asked her where she and her uncle would stay for along in Jakarta. I tried to help her looking for a place to stay... hotel's too expensive.. so the board's much cheaper...

Praise The Lord, they could find the boards needed.

The operation took on Wednesday, and after that, Paulin looked for the better board for her uncle and cousin. Woow...praying and helping her to look for the board... it's not easy, but God always answers prayer in the right time.

Taking care others when my busy times wasn't easy. But it's new thing that i've learned. So happy and glad to do that. Through this moment, I could meet a sister from Bandung who works in Jakarta, too (Yuli). Long time no see her, though she's been in Jakarta for a few months. Wooow...we're having fun together for almost two weeks. Trying to cheer Paulin up and entertain her for along her times in Jakarta. Though i just had week-end times for her, i was glad doing it.

missing this moment

Now...i'm very missing that moment. Our togetherness... These pics are the last day of me with Paulin. We're going to the cinema at Taman Anggrek Mal, then sight seeing at Matahari, tried fitting some shoes, dresses... then eating together... did not forget to take pictures,too... huakakakaka...

Oh yes.. giving our ears for friends to listen their stories, it's a great ministry, too... ^_^ and i did it.

Hhhmmm... wait for me, Paulin... I'll come to your city, too... one day... hahahaha...

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-- Give Thanks --

Today, i went to cell community.. the time's changed to 10.00am, so we might be more flexible to fellowship and tomorrow still could go to the office freshly. Though I was late coming to Linda's house, but I wasn't late for the sharing time. When I arrived, they're still cooking and eating fried rice... hahahaha... it's fun time, cause we don't have to be in hurry.

 

 

The sharing time's coming... my cell leader lead to share about "Give Thanks". That's a good theme, I think. He asked us : 

1. When is the latest givethanks that we made?

2. What kind of situation that could make us forget to givethanks?

When I heard those questions, I was spontaneously thinking and reminded about my life these days. The challenges which I face these days in family, working, and so on... How I had to be patient with my mom, and my co-workers at the office. When I was being upset, I could forget about giving thanks to God. The First response was bad, and after it be done, I regretted it.


But 2 days ago, I made up my mind and did something, a restitution with a friend in my dept. I could speak calmly with her and even motivated her, too. And yesterday, I could make a different when I spoke to her. It's my new achievement this month for managing my emotion and communication with a difficult people. Hehehehe... I hope, I could level up myself more and more for the next.
I thank God for every challenge that I face. (Romans 8:28)


How about you?
Have you given Him thanks?
When do you give Him thanks?

Rejoice evermore. Pray without ceasing. In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.

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Climb Up !!!

Trusting God won't make mountain smaller, but It will make the climbing easier!

This morning, i opened my sms, and i found a sms from one of my leader at office. She said something that i've got 2 years ago and my dept. leader said the same thing 2 months ago, and both of them are the events of praying and fasting of my office staffs. Wooww.. it's a confirmation for me. But actually, it's hard to pass. These days (as i wrote on my wordpress) are not the easy days... but very full of challenges. It's about myself, my family, my work, ministries and community. Indeed, i've to pass it.

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T.E.A.M.

 

In our lives... we could find that in starting a new thing being easier because we have many peoples around us who give their ideas which giving not just as a little impact for doing that. It's great and happy thing if we could start and build something with our own concept. What we want to be, it can be done like what we want. 

But sometimes, we can't...because we work in a team. Many peoples have ideas, many peoples have a right to speak, even they have hidden agendas. 

So, in working as a team, we have to press our ego down! If we don't do that, we can't find a way out and decision to make up. Everyone could think that her/his idea is the best, but the best one is coming out from the result of a discussion. 

There's no place for word "No Way Out" in a team. Instead, we could be stronger, better, reach higher, faster in finishing the job or project.

What are you facing these days in working as a team?

Don't give up!!!

You're in the School of Life right now. 

You're molded to have better characters through working in a team. 

Always have a positive thinking in every case that you face.

Don't be apathetic if your ideas, suggestions isn't heard by others.

Have an opened and humble heart accepting any circumstances and others' responses.

If you're allowed to face even the worst thing in your life, remember! God still loves you, so He wants you to learn and learn. He wants you to level up your characters and spirit. The School of Life is still going on till you come back to His side one day. And before you go to your real place on His side, Finish all things that He has given to you excellently.

And don't forget, if you're working in a team... make your team becomes 

^_^

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...it's beautiful loved by...

Woow.. long time want to write about this thing.. but, i've just found the idea.. and it's related with my last posting.. It's about a few things i've got that made me felt being loved so much by my friends... ^_^

Not about the spectacular things, it's simply but made me amazed...

I couldn't upload all, but here are some i could show you :

it's the very new thing i have... it's a valentine gift from someone who far away

(Linda from Sby)

I've told about it on my post in Feb'10

It's a surprise i've ever had, a privilege maybe... cause she's a part of my discipleship... though we've never been face to face in discipleship... but i could feel the love and care that she gives...

It's my birthday gift in 2007 from San-San

She's my very best friend

Actually, it's my first DVD of Hillsong i've ever had.

I was very waiting for this series.

And a few days before my birthday, when San-San and i were going to mal,

we visited a religious music shop, and she asked me to choose a DVD.

There were 2 kinds the newest songs, Amy Grant and this Hillsong series.

Confused to choose, i like both of them.

But finally, i chose Hillsong... because i have some collections of them.

I got it on my birthday in 2007, too...

It's a gift from two of my office friends...

They are Akhim and Pipit ^_^

As i told above... i loved to choose Amy and Hills... but I chose Hills from San-San

I'd never thought that i would get DVD of Amy, too...

I just thought that i would buy it by myself...

But God's grace's different than what i thought...

He gave me more than i could thought

Finally...i got both of them...

And here's my first concert ticket...

Like a dream came true...

Seeing Joel Houston and team (though it wasn't the full team)

at Senayan Tennis Indoor

It's a gift of my birthday in 2006 from San-San

23-11-2006

And it's me with Fany and friends from Indonesia who stayed in S'pore

I could be there, because of a gift (tickets) from a leader

It's a great memories at the end of 2006!

Still many things i couldn't tell about "a being loved by..." 

But here are what i could tell.. All about God's gifts and miracles for me...

Besides my friends... The One i could say thanks is GOD...whom we call JESUS...

He's the One who has given me opportunities to experience and
to gaze upon the beauty of His love...

It's Great... Great... and Great...!!!

Thanks, Father...!!!

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..loving and being loved..

Firman Tuhan di ibadah Minggu ini  tentang mengasihi dan dikasihi. Ada beberapa ciri orang, yang parah itu adalah : Tidak mau mengasihi dan tidak mau dikasihi.

Ada 1 tipe yang  merupakan refleksi dari diriku : Mau mengasihi tetapi tidak mau dikasihi. Aku menggantinya menjadi : Mau mengasihi tetapi sungkan untuk dikasihi.

Tipe ini adalah orang yang terkadang berpikir tidak mau meyusahkan orang lain. Dalam prakteknya, sungkan meminta pertolongan orang lain, karena saking tidak mau menyusahkan dan lebih terbiasa untuk memberikan pertolongan bagi orang lain.

Sejak kecil aku bertumbuh menjadi gadis yang terus-menerus belajar untuk mandiri. Dari background tidak adanya papa di keluarga, membuat aku dididik untuk menjadi dewasa dan bertanggung jawab sejak kecil. Tidak ada kata manja di dalam hidupku. Terasa keras rasanya didikan yang diberikan. Melakukan sesuatu yang di mata keluarga lain merupakan hal yang luar biasa, adalah menjadi biasa di dalam keluargaku. Jadi, jika ada keberhasilan diraih, hampir ditanggapi dengan respon yang biasa-biasa saja oleh keluargaku. Jika berhasil, memang sudah sewajarnya dan seharusnya aku bisa. Tidak pernah ada yang spesial di mata keluargaku. Tidak mendapatkan pujian itu sudah menjadi hal yang biasa. Kaku?!?! Yup!!! Begitulah yang terjadi di dalam keluargaku. Sulit mengekspresikan kasih di dalam keluarga.

Hal tersebut terus bergulir sampai aku tumbuh remaja. Aku mulai belajar mandiri dalam kehidupan sehari-hari. Memasak, mencuci pakaian, piring, membereskan rumah, pergi naik bus sendiri... itu sudah kulakukan sejak aku kecil. Terlebih lagi ketika aku SMP... mulai pelayanan dan pulang malam itu sudah menjadi hal yang biasa... hampir tanpa ada rasa takut aku melakukannya. Dan sampai saat ini ternyata itu yang terpola di pikiranku, bahwa aku mampu melakukan segala hal sendiri. Membeli beberapa kebutuhan dan keinginanku dengan jerih lelah sendiri, itu suatu kebanggaan juga buatku. Meski di hati kecil sempat ada rasa ingin seperti orang lain, tetapi hampir jarang sekali aku mengharapkannya.

Sering ku melihat beberapa teman yang cukup bergantung jika mau pulang, khususnya pulang malam dari suatu acara. Bisa-bisanya mereka calling teman-teman yang pria dan meminta untuk dijemput. Bahkan ada yang sampai manja sekali sepertinya, dan sudah ketergantungan.

Ketika ku melihatnya... hati kecilku berkata, "BUKAN GUE BANGEEETT!!!!"

Hampir tidak pernah aku memohon belaskasihan untuk diantar sampai ke depan rumahku, karena kupikir aku masih bisa melakukannya sendiri.

Tetapi beberapa waktu belakangan ini aku menjadi berpikir... apakah yang aku lakukan itu salah? Dan ketika kumendengar firman ini di hari Minggu, aku mulai lebih mengerti dengan apa yang terjadi di diriku. Aku menutup diri untuk orang lain bisa melakukan sesuatu bagi hidupku. Mungkin ada kalanya baik, tetapi juga tidak baik jika berlebihan.

Terbawa diriku pada kejadian tahun lalu, ketika memang mama harus mengalami sakit dan dioperasi. Hal yang sungguh di luar pemikiran dan kemampuanku. Seakan ku dibuat Tuhan untuk melapangkan hati menerima banyak bantuan dari banyak orang yang tidak terhitung, dan bahkan tidak kuketahui dengan jelas tiap orangnya. Seorang teman dekatku hanya berkata pada waktu itu, "Sudahlah Nov... Be Grateful aja... ini memang waktunya lu untuk menerima dan menikmati kemurahan Tuhan."

Sungguh tidaklah terbiasa bagiku untuk menerima sesuatu yang bukan dari keluarga dekat. Sungkan rasanya.. tetapi itu terjadi di dalam hidupku. Tahun 2009 adalah tahun di mana Tuhan berjanji dan Tuhan genapi janjiNya itu di dalam hidupku. Bahwa aku sungguh-sungguh melihat tanganNya sendiri yang bekerja dan melimpahkan apa yang tidak pernah kupikir dan kubayangkan. Semua adalah pelajaran yang berharga bagiku. Membuka hati untuk dikasihi oleh orang lain. Tidaklah salah jika aku berlaku seperti itu. Tidak selamanya aku bisa berdiri dan berjuang sendiri untuk dan bersama keluargaku. Ada kalanya aku harus mengijinkan orang lain yang bukan keluarga untuk masuk ke dalam pergumulan pribadi / keluargaku.

Mungkin ini suatu proses yang Tuhan ijinkan untuk mempersiapkan aku di masa depan. Mungkin selama ini sikapku yang memberi kesan bahwa aku wanita perkasa yang tidak butuh pria di dalam hidupku, dan membuat orang lain, khususnya pria agak sungkan juga mendekatiku. Hahahahahaha...

That's just my analysis.

Loving and being Loved... mengingatkan aku bahwa aku tidak bisa selamanya melakukan segala sesuatu sendiri... mengingatkan aku bahwa aku butuh orang lain dalam hidupku... mengingatkan aku untuk tidak kaku dan tidak terlalu menunjukkan sifat ketangguhanku dan dominanku...

Thanks Pa... Engkau begitu mengasihiku sehingga ku bisa belajar hal ini... Thanks juga, jika selama ini aku bisa mandiri. Semua karena anugerahMu... bukan karena kemampuanku.... ^_^

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Giving my Best

I heard it a few days ago when I watched TV at night. There’s a TV program which took a theme about Giving my Best. Some guests were invited to tell the story about their lives, how they totally give their lives to their jobs.. loving and living their jobs which giving them lives.

Suddenly, it disturbed my mind… a statement came to me, “If many peoples out there know how to give their best to their jobs, to their boss… how about us as God’s children?”
God always knows and gives His Best for us, but we usually forget Him, forget to give our best for Him. There're only complains, regrets, etc.. that always we do.
Colossians 3:23 says : " And whatsoever ye do, do it heartily, as to the Lord, and not unto men; "
We know about it, we've heard about it in many times which we couldn't count. But the question is : "Have we practiced it as daily habit?"

Need a discipline to do it.
Need to remind and motivate ourselves constantly.
Just inner-driven and His grace could make it happened.

So, if you're still fighting to make it, i just can say that : "Don't give up!!! You can do all things through Him Who strengthens you. Not by your might, but His."

He's with you ^_^

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