...Mother...

I don't know how to write it... for more than one week i was at the end of the rope... I got sick that made me couldn't do many things... It happened at the beginning of this month... but, I could learn something through this manner.

--at Depok Beach, Parangtritis, Jogjakarta--

I could see how my mother very loved me and she took care of me everytime I needed a help... though she wasn't well, too... she tried her best to take care of me...

When I cried out because of the deep pain, I saw her couldn't do anything... she only looked at me and prayed for my health... but I could feel her love for me...

Through this experience, I could make a reconciliation with her, too... And something better started since then in our relationship.

There's a problem emotion between us.. I knew it exactly.. it's caused since I was in her womb. When she knew that she was pregnant, she tried to make abortion through many ways... But fortunately, God's hands were upon me, protected me from every kind of medicine or any food that she ate to abort me...

She had ever made a reconciliation with me, but not in emotion problem. And actually, I had forgiven her, too...

Praise God, something good happened between us, but so much the price I had to pay...

One day, when I felt very weak, suddenly a voice came in my heart... it said "When i am weak, You make me strong... Let your spirit be on fire and serve the Lord... For this reason we never become discouraged. Even though our physical being is gradually decaying, yet our spiritual being is renewed day after day."

After heard these statements I got up and sat and prayed... God spoke to me a few things.... He reminded me about His Sacrifice, that He had taken and healed all my disease through the cross. I could feel how was the Father's Heart when saw Jesus was crucified... it was my mother's heart when she saw me cried out because of that very deep pain, too.

I just could thanked God for every situation He has allowed in my life.

Thanked God for still having a good mother beside me...

I don't know what would be happened if I was alone at home feeling that deep pain... ^^

So... Love and Express our Love to whom we Love for along they are still with us... ^^

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..Love in Life Practice..



How great were my days where I'd been allowed to face many things in my family. It happened in my home. It started since the end of last month, where my mom and I were surprised by a news about my uncle. It suddenly happened by the SMS that we received, that my uncle and his wife and one of his daughter wanted to come to my home. It's caused of the job interview that must be followed by my uncle in Jakarta. Since then, we knew that my uncle and family had been moved from Batam to Semarang.

The first week of December, my uncle started his new job and stayed at my home. Actually, I was struggling to accept him in my house, because he's smoking. Beside that, he and his family have made my big fam angry since the first time they got married. It's like a habit... if they were happy, they forgot us, the family in Jakarta... but if they were in trouble, they remembered and asked for help from us, especially from my mom and me.

I've ever angry about it, too... but I learned to forgive them... learned to bless them with everything I could give... I've ever thought about it, and I felt proud that I could give my hand to them. Though I couldn't give much money, I could bless them. When they were at my home, I tried to do the same... though my mom, bro and I couldn't accept some of their deeds and habits.

It's easy to say the word "LOVE"...

but it isn't easy to make it into "Reality"...

This is what God has taught me for along this month...

When Christmas came a few days ago, God reminded me about it... "LOVE"

Christmas talks about Love & Forgive...

Both of those words have the same meaning behind...

It's about GIVING...

God has teaches us to Give His Love and ForGive all of our sins...

So, we have to do the same that He has taught to us...

Difficult or Easy?

The answer is Just Do It !!!  Obey !!!

Let's make Love isn't just one beautiful word...

but...

Let's make it into Reality in Life Practice...

Have a joyful journeys with Him

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...a prisoner...

Remember of this song :

I'm a prisoner... prisoner of Your Love...

I can't run away... I can't run away from You...

I'm a prisoner... prisoner of Your Love...

I can't run away... I can't run away from You...

Maybe we just know in the negative meaning of this word "Prisoner"

Prisoner is:

1. a person found guilty of a crime and sent to prison.

2. a person captured and kept confined.

3. a person trapped by a situation.

When I read Jeremiah 33:1-3... I found that Jeremiah was a prisoner... 

How come? He was a prophet of God, wasn't he? How did he become a prisoner?

I found that he did what God said to him for the king, and the king couldn't receive what Jeremiah told.

When we think about prison, we think of the small and bad room. But what happened with Jeremiah? He was prisoned at the courtyard of the palace of the king.

From this verse I could learn something about prison and prisoner. We could be prisoned by what we do or think. We can be realized that we're prisoned if we feel something not good. Dangerously, we can't be realized that we've been prisoned, because we've felt comfort. Maybe it's about our comfort zone, our past thinking and paradigm...

So, what should we do?

I learn from Jeremiah, though he was in prison, he was still have a good relationship with God. God wanted he kept sensitive to hear what God wanted to say to him for the people.

Everyday, God wants us to have this relation with us... we should hear His voice everytime, everywhere. Seek and Know what He wants us to do. And shout to Him always if we haven't got something from Him.

We maynot stay for a long time in our comfort zone. We've to move on!!!

So.. Let's recognize where we are right now.. then Make a Change!!!

Let's make ourlives being prisoned only by God's Love!

let's enjoy our journeys of lives

and

find a new thing everyday

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...thinker...

- - -

If you want to become a Great Thinker,

you first need to become a Good Thinker..

Before becoming a Good Thinker,

you need to become A Thinker..

In order to become A Thinker,

you need to be willing to first produce a bunch of mediocre and downright bad ideas..

Only by practicing and developing your thinking daily will your ideas get better.

Your thinking ability is determined not by your desire to think, but by your past thinking.

To become a good thinker, do more thinking.

Once the ideas start flowing, they get better.

Once they get better, they keep improving.


- John C. Maxwell -



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mental upahan atau hamba excellent?

Statement ini tiba-tiba muncul beberapa waktu lalu, ketika ada 1 kejadian yang membuatku terlintas akan kata-kata tersebut. "Mental Upahan atau Hamba yang Excellent?"

Seringkali aku merasa jengkel ketika menemukan kejadian yang mirip dengan statement tersebut. Jengkel rasanya melihat orang yang dalam pekerjaannya hitung-hitungan... comparing pekerjaan dengan upah yang dia terima... bukan hanya terjadi di dunia sekuler, bahkan dalam dunia rohani pun juga terjadi hal seperti itu.

Sejak pertama aku melayani, aku belajar untuk melakukan semaksimal yang bisa aku lakukan. Ketika aku pertama kali bekerja di sebuah kantor dalam rangka job training, aku juga belajar untuk tidak hitung-hitungan dan mengerjakan apa saja yang bisa aku kerjakan. Karena aku memiliki pemikiran bahwa, lewat apa yang aku kerjakan, aku akan bisa belajar sesuatu yang baru.

Demikian halnya ketika aku lulus sekolah dan bekerja.... aku belajar untuk melakukan apa saja yang bisa aku lakukan, apa saja yang dipercayakan oleh pimpinan... meski pernah aku lembur dan menginap di kantor oleh karena pekerjaan yang tidak pernah diajarkan ke aku oleh orang yang sebelumnya, sehingga pekerjaan itu menumpuk. Masa-masa sulit di tahun pertama aku bekerja... tetapi aku lakukan semaksimal mungkin. Padahal pada saat itu salary yang aku terima termasuk kecil, dan tidak ada uang lembur untuk pekerjaan yang harus aku lakukan sampai overtime.

Tapi tahukah anda? Tuhan tidak pernah berhutang kepadaku... Tahun demi tahun aku melihat tangan Tuhan bekerja atasku. Semua apa yang aku butuhkan Tuhan cukupkan, bahkan pernah ada bonus dan kejutan.

Sungguh belajar untuk berespon yang benar ketika aku bertemu orang-orang yang terlihat hitung-hitungan. Aku pernah melihat orang yang tidak mau belajar sesuatu yang baru, karena takut ditambahi tanggung jawab baru. Ada di antara mereka berpikir, ketika ada tanggung jawab baru, belum tentu salary mereka selaras dengan job yang mereka kerjakan. Tanggung jawab baru membuat mereka bisa kerja overtime, atau mereka sudah terlalu sibuk dengan pekerjaan yang saat ini mereka lakukan, dsb.

Teman, aku pernah melewati semua hal yang tidak enak dalam pekerjaan dan pelayanan... tetapi luar biasanya, aku bisa menyaksikan tangan Tuhan atasku dalam setiap hal yang aku lakukan. Berkat-Nya mengikuti aku sepanjang hidupku sampai saat ini. Meskipun dalam masa-masa sulit dalam hidupku... aku bisa melihat penyertaanNya.

Kunci dalam kita melakukan apapun..

1. Lakukan dengan tulus hati seperti untuk Tuhan dan bukan untuk manusia.

2. Miliki mental dan pemikiran bahwa kita akan belajar sesuatu yang baru yang memperkaya kita lewat apa yang kita kerjakan.

Aku bercerita seperti ini bukan berarti aku tidak pernah alami masa kepicikan dalam pikiran dan hidupku. Tapi ketika kepicikan itu datang, aku selalu diingatkan akan 2 kunci di atas.

So... apapun yang sedang anda alami hari-hari ini, mari kita terus belajar memiliki mental Hamba yang Excellent...bukan mental pegawai upahan, yang bekerja hanya untuk upah saja.

Upah (uang) bisa habis dalam sekejap... tetapi kekayaan ilmu dan pengalaman akan kita bawa terus-menerus yang membuat kita menjadi semakin expert, bahkan menambah nilai upah kerja kita nantinya. ^_^

Enjoy your journeys. He's with you. ^^

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