sacrifice...

Thinking about sacrifice...i remember about my experience last month when i went to Surabaya for attending my best friend's wedding...
Actually, it was hard for me to decide that trip because i thought about the high cost to go there, especially the flight cost... but someone motivated me to go... and finally i did it...

When i got the best price of ticket, i made a plan to go to Malang City for one night...
In every trip i usually have good planning... but not for last month...
Starting from the first day i arrived, i wanted to have time going from market to market at noon... i did it... but i didn't have enough time going with someone because there's another friend who has been her boyfriend... it happened until my last day in Surabaya...
I planned for a private trip with some close friends only... but the reality was different... hahaha... some new people came and joint the trip... and once again i had to release my comfort zone...

For along the trip i could enjoy...but not at the end of my day... When i arrived at Juanda Airport too early...my heart started grumbling... "How can it be?!?! How fool i am in arranging my schedule...i have never been like this!!". I blamed my best friend for the bad schedule we had...
At that time, i knew that i was wrong... i knew that i had bad response... and i tried to control my feeling and thoughts... 
At the airport, God spoke to me that i had been too egoist... i'd been too perfectionist... Until today, He still speaks to me about what He wants me to learn...
To Love...
To be Ready in everything...

To Love is about to sacrifice...
Sacrifice what we love, what we like, what we want...
To Love is not only about pleasing other but also pleasing God...
I realized that i would have a big satisfaction which couldn't be paid by large amount of money when i see a happiness in someone because of my deed...even though she/he doesn't know how i do it... ^_^

Sacrifice is about feeling pain...
Behind the painful thing we have, there's a beautiful thing that God allows for us to learn...

These days i thank God for the lessons i might learn...
It is not easy but i believe that i am not alone facing those things because He is with me...
Whatever sad or bad experience we have, He is with us... ^_^

~novitz~