Trust and Obey - in experience -

Trust and Obey can't be separated... it will be related each other. This year, God teaches me the new experiences about it... the fresh stories of my journeys of this year.

As i told before that God has taught me since 2008, it's about FAITH... and it's the preparation for me to face 2009... where my faith was increased more than before... about my mom and myself...(read : http://novitz.blogspot.com/2010/01/2009-full-of-memories-and-miracle.html )

Faith and Trust Him, I've experienced where Obedience took the important place, too... But last years the main thing was about Faith. And this year, the different things happened in me... 2 big experiences I have, and all about Obedience.

First, it's at the end of March...

When I was in a camp of praying and fasting, on the second day, God asked me to do something.. it's about restitution to someone far away from me. I thought, it's still OK if  I didn't do that... but I had to obey it, though it's too extreme... it's about my heart... about what i felt to my friend... One thing that I thought, I had to purify my heart... and God said, "I have a business with your heart not the other, and your business is with Me.."

He said that statement when I thought, "What will the other think about me? What will be happened with the response of my friend? Will our relationship be broken if I do it?"

Those questions and many else sometimes come when God asks us to obey... trying to make an excuse to avoid...

But I could pass it... I won it... conquered all of my fears... felt free after I said sorry... couldn't explain the feeling on that day...

And after that, God said something again to me, "Vi...don't you know that is what I want from you? I want your obedience..."

Second, it's just happened about 1 month...

It's about money. As we know, there is written, "For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also."

At the end of June, when I was at Sunday Service, a sermon was given by a leader whom I respect to... He's a best model who has given great impact in my life since I was in Junior High School. He shared about Mission...related to money and giving... He shared about the vision for education in Bali... because since a few years ago, he has been a leader of our church in that island. My heart felt so torn by the sermon... God reminded me about His calling in Education... i've ever dreamed being a teacher at school, but i haven't achieved it. I just join in a ministry of education dept. in my church. And God asked me to invest my money for the education and school which will be built in Denpasar.

I said to God, it's not a little amount for me though for others it's nothing. And actually, God asked the money which I hadn't received yet. I received it on July 13th...but He asked me long time before. I tried many times to test my heart if it's really an instruction from God or not...

July 13th, when I received the money, God reminded me to ask the account number... I delayed....

July 17th, when I was at Kingdom Financial Class, 1 session made me reminded again... I delayed...

July 18th, when I was at Sunday Service, the sermon was tickling my heart... I delayed...

July 20th, someone shared her devotion to me, it's about giving... and I... I couldn't delay it anymore...

Hahahaha... ^_^

I sms the leader of Bali, asking for the account number... and how I was surprised about his response... he and family were excited and strengthened by what i shared... more than what i imagined before... And a day after, i transfered the money to that bank account.

Woow... it's the greatest of my experience in giving... 1/6 of my 10 years working appreciation has been asked by God... never imagined...

But i believe... my obedience will give eternal impact... ^^

The other side, i learn to entrust my life, my money, my everything to Him.

I'll close this posting with a story... 

A doctor shared about his first son who's just been working. His wife asked the son, "Boy...what did you do with your first salary?"... and the son answered, "I gave it to church, mom.."

Then... after it, the same question came, and the same answer was given by the son... but this time, the mommy (the doctor's wife) asked another question to her son, "Boy, a few times you gave your money to the church... and how about your needs? What will you do if you don't have money anymore for your needs?"

Then the son answered, "It's easy, mom... if i don't have money anymore, i will ask to mommy or daddy.."

Friends... it's a simple story..but we could get a lesson from it...

We should have the response same as the son did... spirit like a child...

The doctor's son knew and believe that his parents still love and will give what he needed when he had no money.

We should Trust God and Obey Him, whatever He asks from us.

We should do it, because we have The Richest God.

So... what do you think right now?

Learn to Trust and Obey Him whatever it is.

Have a response like the doctor's son.

And get the new experience with Him.

Have a wonderful journeys and new experiences with Him.

He's with you... ^^

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WHAT DO YOU SEE?

What do you see?

This question’s very shocking me when i read it. Because, about 2 weeks ago, there's something came to my mind, a statement which almost same…but it’s about other people, not for myself.

But this time the question is for me… because these days I’m not in good situation and feeling… A few times I got angry, it’s caused of the internet connection which made trouble for my communication with others… I couldn’t trust to the staff of IT… but I tried to be patient… my friends’re getting trouble to finish their reports, too… whoaaa… really didn’t like it… but I had to face it, even till now sometimes…

Beside that… I didn’t like the response of my co-workers… the reports of July were finished and given to me on July 27th…  very very late… but the leaders don’t see if they’re late…  for me, I have to finish my parts on time… I feel that my friends just take care of their selves… they even don’t think how is my part… because they don’t have responsibility to leaders directly… but me?!?! … wheew…   My part is the representative of my dept, i think… so I have to keep the credibility of our dept.

Honestly.. I want to finish all fastly and take the break time for a while…. Vacation… hahaha…

When I read this statement : “what do you see?” … it’s like something woke me up, made me realize that what I see these days are problems only… forget to give thanks to God, especially about my job. And my anger gave the negative impact for my body, it’s not about I’ve just been recovered from flu…but if we work where the negative thinking being with us, it will make our body unhealthy, too…

Thanks God for everything I might experience… Thanks because You’ve taught me a valuable lesson…though it’s very simple, but it’s very valuable.

Friends… “What do you see these days?” … sickness, confusion, desperation, afraid, worry about your future, financial or family problem..??
Let’s come back to Him who can strengthen us and give wisdom to find the problems solving for our lives.
Let’s walk together in His Mercy and Grace which guide us to be able doing everything.
 

Journey by journey will be beautiful, if we walk with Him.
Have a wonderful and great journeys with Him.
He’s with you all… ^^

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T - O ... (Trust and Obey)

A few days ago, when i was on my way from cell meeting to my sweet home, i was reminded by what God has taught and done in me since 2008. He teaches me to put my trust in Him all the times... though it sounds easy, it's hard to do in fact...

Genesis 12 : 1-8... it talks about Abraham : 
-  how he got the promises of God for his life...
-  how he obeyed to God's instructions...
-  though he didn't know the place he wanted to go...
-  he moved...
-  became a blessing for his family and others...

Hebrews 11 : 8

By faith Abraham, when he was called to go out into a place which he should after receive for an inheritance, obeyed; and he went out, not knowing whither he went.

I think, as a human, there're many questions in his mind...

why..why..and why..??
how..?? and how come..??
but.. he couldn't find the answers...
the answers were just OBEDIENCE... STEP OUT... based on TRUST in HIM...

The same thing happened with Joshua...when he had to lead the Israel entering the Canaan Land. He had to Trust and Obey all the Word of God.
Sometimes, we have many questions about our lives... why does it happen to me, Lord?... should i do it??.. and eventually we have many reasons to be disobedient.

Obedience is the KEY for us to achieve success.

Obey His Word...and meditate it day and night...

Wherever we go..

Whatever we do..

Whatever the situations and feeling..

We have to do it... ^^

This is what i've learned since 2008... there're many times God has spoken to me about His Promises... and all i can do is to Trust and Obey only... Easy?? of course NOOO!!!  fighting... fighting.. and fighting with my ego... that's the trouble i usually face.. and all the people will face it, too...

Friends... whatever situations you face these days... i want to encourage you to keep Trusting in Him and Obey all things He has spoken to you.
Don't Give Up, if you haven't seen the answers yet.
Trust in His Time... all will be beautiful at the rigth time..
Blessings... ^^

Joshua 1:8

This book of the law shall not depart out of thy mouth; but thou shalt meditate therein day and night, that thou mayest observe to do according to all that is written therein: for then thou shalt make thy way prosperous, and then thou shalt have good success.

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..Yielding my Right..

Two days ago, i went to starbucks after the Sunday Service. I needed to work and write or do anything which using my notebook. But, guess what i found!!!  At first, the windows said that unable connect to any wireless connection. I asked the barista, why did it happen?! Then i tried to restart my notebook for 2 - 3 times, then i checked the set up, log in safe mode, but i couldn't find any strange things... so.. i tried to restart again.. and something happened with the rebooting... whheewww... really didn't like this... it asked to reboot even i tried to use windows normally, safe mode, safe mode in networking, safe mode in command prompt...

I tried to call my cell mate, then sms my cell leader... but on that time, i couldn't reach them, though could speak with my cell mate for a while... Then, i called Joy ( a brother in Surabaya )... told him about the problem, and he told many possibilities about my notebook. The shortcut i could think was to bring my notebook to service center, but Joy told me to ask friends who could repair it first... because service center is very expensive.

At night, i called my cell leader, and he wanted to help me.. to check the notebook and doing something that he could...

I still don't know why does it happen?

But, one thing i know... God wants me to learn something...

Actually, the notebook is my beloved one... because i didn't buy it easily... 

Maybe... He wants me to offer it to Him... it's belong to Him...not me... I've loved it more than everything, maybe... beside that, I have to spend my time more with Him.. not with my job.. my hobbies..
little bit of pain i feel these days... but... i must face it... 

I almost forgot to give Him thanks... fortunately, someone reminded me to do it... 

Give Thanks to the Lord...

Dar Gracias a Dios... maybe easy when our feelings are good...

Dar Gracias a Dios... not easy for us to say it when facing the bad things...

But...

When we could say it to God... He would be glad and proud...

Because we offer the best offering... thanksgiving sacrifice... just for Him... ^^

Now.. i'm still waiting for the repairing... Lord, i give up to You... i know You could do a miracle for me... Thanks for teaching me to yield my right about my notebook...

Thanks for teaching me about it, after my hand phone for a few times...

I just wanna say...that... all that i have are Yours, Pa...

I offer all to Your Hand... ^^

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..still HE answers my prayer..

This is a story after my trip to Medan. I forget the exact time when I was called by my friend in Education Dept. He sent me an IM (Instant Message) at Yahoo Messanger.... asked my availability of time to ministry in ESC. He asked me to join in the team of ESC Pelajar as an Instructor... I was amazed, because since last year I wanted to join that Team, I didn't tell anyone except Yenny... but it's very suddenly thing... and I had to be an Instructor... Long time not in that function... hehehe...

Then I answered him, I said that I wanted to join, but I had to have a coordination with my leaders and friends... After took a moment, I gave him answer... and the answer was YES!!!

My boss just said that I had to manage my jobs, Finance Spv. said it, too... and I had to change my schedule of office hours on Sunday with the other.

--amazed mode on--

It's looked easy to pass.. I was very amazed of that moment... How Come?? I didn't find the answer, why... but I just enjoyed it... Oh yes.. I felt that God always guides my ways since my obedience a few months ago... and at the end of May...when I attended a prophetic conference, God said that I had to forget all of my past...set my eyes looking forward to the future...He'd draw me near and flying with Him... from victory to victory...

I kept it in my heart and my notes... I was crying when He said it... felt refreshed...encouraged...

These days... I could see the beautiful of His promises in my life... answering my prayer, open the closed doors... and my sensitivity of His Voice being added...

A few weeks ago.. when I was going to cell meeting, suddenly a wisdom came to my mind, said to me to ask my friend via SMS.. then when on my way, a reply came and said to me that there wasn't cell meeting on that day, it would took on weekend, Saturday night...

I thanked God for it, because I was still on my way and I could go home earlier....

My cell mate sent a SMS again and said to me, "Sis.. how God so loves you... so He tells you to SMS me and makes you not being astrayed..."

Again... for along the way to my home... I was amazed by His Love... Great Love...

Maybe, it's just a little and simply thing... but I could see that was a Great Thing... Everyday is a Great Thing that He's given for us to pass.. Believe that His guidance is with us, too... He never leaves us alone on our ways... always with us... BUT... the question is... Do we always Realize of His Presence??

I keep learning about it... depend on His Wisdom, Strength, wherever I go... when ESC, it's like a first time for me... I learned from the basic, not laying on my past experiences... because every moment has a new and specific experience which He wants to give us to learn...

with some of my team

I could learn new things and train some of my team, because they're still new comers... it's their first time being part of ESC Team.

Lovely moments...couldn't be forgotten...

Lovely moments...where I learned to be humble more...

Led by the peoples whom I led before...

Obedience gives Great Effects

Obedience brings us to the success

Enjoy all the journeys of our lives

We'll see the beauty of HIM from moment to moment

see you on my next journeys with HIM

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-- My New Trip is a Miracle one -- part 2 --

This Trip's very wonderful, i think... and after a few months i don't work together with my friend whom i went together to Medan. I learned to see and just follow what would be. I didn't want to be too Dominant in this training. Arrived in Polonia - Medan, 3 peoples picked us up... they were k' Enda, her brother and Fistra. Then we went to the office church.. where we would stay for a few days...

After put all our stuffs... we continued going to survey the place where the TFT would take place. It's not in Medan... maybe it's like Bogor if in Java Island...

It's beautiful place, i think... i could find green colors everywhere... ^^

After took survey, we ate together at Tesalonika Resto which had specialty in cooking BPK (Babi Panggang Karo). Honestly, i didn't want to eat it at first... but Fistra said that i had to try it... Finally, i ate it.. just a little bit... but i like the beverage... Martabe Juice (Markisa Terong Belanda Juice)... it's fresh juice.. hehehehe...  Feeling weird for along the trip with the food... i wasn't too excited to eat... it's very different if i went to Surabaya... hehehe...

Ayam Cipera (Cipera Chicken-a Batak Karo food)

Sayur Daun Singkong, Ikan Arsik, Ampela

(Batak Karo Food)

I ate all food above when going to TFT, June 12th... I pushed myself to eat them... hehehehe... though i wasn't excited to eat it... but I didn't show it up to k' Enda and a worker who host us. At TFT, i tried to eat all the food which given. Fighting... Fighting... !!!! hahahaha...

For along the TFT, i enjoyed and taugt them as maximize i could... Always asking God what He wanted to do for the Team. At night, the flow was changed... final simulation at night wasn't played... something guided me to ask them to worship and asking God to refresh them, too. After worship, i asked them, one by one to share what they got... and i hadn't ever imagined... they were so opened... hehehehe... ^^

together with the team

June 13th, final simulation... then after took a shower, we worshipped together, praying, and it's so great moment. After all the flows of TFT finished, we went to survey the place for Camp... then going to Panatapan... it's like Puncak in West Java... lovely view... loved it very much... hehehe...

peace mode on

free style

My friend went back to Jakarta on June 14th, but i had extend 1 day in Medan... going around with Fistra and her motorcycle... Actually, i wanted go to Toba Lake, but it couldn't be done... too short time...

capcay, fried gurame, martabe juice

--lunch menu--

mixed ice at Methodist School

at the shop of Bolu Meranti

--the only place of famous gift from Medan, no franchise--

I enjoyed all things about my trip to Medan... though there're a few of not good things, i still could enjoy at all... Hoping for the next one... in September 2010... i will come again... in order to ministry for the ESC... wkwkwkwk... ^^

--kwetiau kerang--

my last dinner in Medan

Waiting for the other Miracles coming to my life... Lord.. You hear what i want, even in the deepest place

of my heart...

1 thing i learn this year, He answers fastly some of my goals which focused to others.

Always like that... hahahaha...

Thanks Father... ^^

See you on the next journeys of mine with Him.

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-- My New Trip is a Miracle one -- part 1 --

It's been a few weeks ago.. but I've just been able to write it now. I can't even imagine being there this year. I just wrote on my Goal Setting to go to a new place to minister this year. I didn't write the place exactly. But I just kept it in my heart. I have a friend who lives in Medan, and she always asks me to go to her city for many times, but I always says, "Pray for me could be able going to your city, sis..."

She is jealous because I could go to Surabaya for many times, but couldn't go to her city. I said to her that unfortunately, I couldn't get your city by a train from Jakarta, it's so different if I go to Surabaya. If I could do that, maybe I could be able go to your city easily. It means that going to Medan is more expensive than Sby. So, I need to save my money first. Hehehehe...

Actually, it's not my turn going to Medan. It should be my friend. But, she couldn't because there's a graduation ceremony of her brother on June 12th, and the trip took on June 11th - 14th.

I knew the schedule when she shared on cell group meeting on June 3rd, but she said that still wanted to go, though it's hard for her because that's the moment where she could gather together with her family in the graduation ceremony of her brother.

June 5th... I wasn't well and couldn't be able to go to the office. Still at the morning, suddenly I got a sms from my friend. She asked me to go to Medan for TFT of ESC. I said that I should have a coordination with my leaders first. And there's a surprise, because they answered "YES!"

Actually, I felt happy... but the other side of my heart and thought... it said a negative statement that i just a reserve player, just a back up... not the main player...

It suddenly came because I have had some experiences about it. And it's the new one I got.

But, there was a fighting in my heart and my mind. Suddenly a voice's coming and said, "You're not as What You're thinking, Vi..!!! You're a Princess... You're the main player on My Sight..."

I said, "What?? I am a Princess??..."

Then the voice's coming again, "Yes!!! In every situation that you've already had, I want you to learn that How important you are and How I want you to have the opportunities. Not the others...but there're your turns actually...and I want you to enjoy it."

Speechless I was... and the tears falling down when I heard it. I could realize that How precious I am and How He loves me very much...

A healing of feeling rejection was coming... and His love filled my heart so I might thank Him for everything He's allowed in me.

It's Great, Lord... It's really my new exprerience!!!

And i believe, through this matter, I could be healed and find the Truth about who I am. ^^

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