Be Joyful !!!

Let your hope keep you joyful,

be patient in your troubles,

and

pray at all times.

These weeks are running fastly... it's been the second month of 2011... many things happen in the beginning of this year... lovely, sad, sweet and so on...

If the good experience, it could make us happy and diligent to do something... but if it's sadly... sometimes we can't have a good response.

There's a lovely thing has happened at the beginning of this year... Lovely to do something good for others... to encourage for having enthusiastic passion in building relationship with God.

But at the other side, there's a sad story happened in my life... Again and again, it's about yielding my right... It happened last week... it's been more than one week right now, actually... When I was at a coffee shop, I did a careless thing that I'd never thought before, because in my mind I very trusted that place was a safety place.. so I left all my equipments for a while, except my wallet, to buy a cake at the bar of that cafe.

Maybe you can guess it fastly what had happened after...

I've lost something !!!

I've lost my beloved cell phones... both of them...

It's a terrible thing and I'd never thought or imagined it before... but it was a fact!!! hahaha...

But something different happened in me... it wasn't like me... I did a different response... I felt like I had been ready to face this thing... I wasn't angry with the man who has taken my cell phones... even I could bless that people and the family. Maybe they needed money, I thought... But I was sad because of the datas only...

I learn in practice about "Yielding my right"... I could release all my cell phones, and I said to some people... All of my stuffs are belong to GOD, they are from GOD, the money that I have to buy them is from GOD, too... so, if I lose them... the cheater doesn't have a business with me... but she/he has a business with GOD.

I learn to thank GOD... I learn to be joyful in everything...

I learn much through this matter.

I don't let the satan takes place of this matter...

I learn to keep my heart being joyful though it's sad thing for me.

I know that I have a Great God... A rich Heavenly Father...

HE can give me the new cell phones... hahaha... ^^

There's a power in giving HIM thanks... I've got a little support from my friend and my aunt to buy a new cell phone. That's a great thing for me... ^^

Thanks God for teaching me this valuable experience...

I learn to be more careful... ^^

And I pray for the people who has cheated my phones could know JESUS and becomes HIS disciple.

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A Confirmation

Friday, January 21th, 2011... there's a staff meeting on that day, where the elders shared the focus of this year. It wasn't like usual, the meeting was opened by one of the elders, Ps. Sofjan. I was surprised when he asked us to read a verse of Bible, 1 Cor 2:9...I said in my heart, "It's what I've got since my last birthday in November 2010"...then the second surprise came when he asked us to read Jer 33:3... again I said, "That's the second verse I've got before!!! at same moment, too...on my birthday.."

It's just the opening of the meeting... I felt how God so loves me, so He gave the confirmation through my pastor. For along the meeting I was amazed by His revelation by revelation He has given in my life. Many times He has spoken to me first before someone talked to me. Then after the sermon, when we worshipped and prayed, the third surprise came. Ps. Sofjan led the worship, then he got a vision to share.. he saw a bay where there were many people standing, but there were just a few who swimming.. whereas many things they could get from the inside of the water.

I said again in my heart... "God... It's almost same as what I've got before... a week ago... You showed me a vision about a seashore where I was sitting with You facing the sea in front of us... and You said that I had to sail... the new journey... with YOU..."

You know, friends? I was crying when the vision said... again I was overwhelmed by His love, grace and goodness in my life...

Those are the three things of confirmation that God has given to me.

• God will reveal His promises to me which I haven't seen, heard and thought before.
• God wants me to hear what He says for everything I do. He would tell me the wonderful and marvelous things that I know nothing about.
• The sailing I have to do with HIM.

Thanks God... the beautiful day with the beautiful confirmation.

Have Your ways in me, LORD... ^^

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...at the seashore...

A few days ago, I went to a meeting of ESC Team at the evening... I still didn't know the rundown of that meeting... Actually, I felt tired to attend that meeting, but I felt I had to go... beside that, I wanted to meet my friends in that team.. especially some of my best friends whom I didn't see for long time (a few months I think).

We talked about to hear what God wanted to say for our ministries this year. We had to have and to do what He wants, not just as a program. We needed to have prayer more than before for the revival in every camp. I confirmed with the sharing from the leader of Education Dept.

For along the sharing, I could see how good was my GOD... I'd been on those experiences before.

When the sharing's ended... we had prayer... when I closed my eyes, I saw Jesus directly on a vision. He was sitting on the rock at the seashore... He's robed in white...talking and smiling with me beside Him. He said that He so loved me.. I saw the sea and asked Him, "Father, should I go sailing to that wide sea?" and Jesus said that I should go sailing... He pointed to a boat near the seashore... He said that I should sail on that boat.. the small boat...

When I saw it, I just could think and think... how come?? and suddenly He said something to me, "Vi..don't be afraid, you will cross the sea with Me... I'll take you to have new experiences of journey... to a new place, too... I'm with you... I'm with you..."

How I couldn't hold the tears falling down that evening when I heard what God said to me... It's a new revelation for my life. He said that He was proud with my faithfulness to keep His promises in my heart, though I couldn't have an assurance for 1 thing I'd got since a few years ago.

He said that the time would come for me to harvest what i'd sowed. And I had to keep and walk by faith in Him. Just be still, He said.

Oh yes, I have had another vision before... it's in November 2010.. I saw that I was walking on a small path near the seashore...there's a trijunction and I should take and choose one of two ways... but Jesus said it's up to me what way I wanted to choose... left side or right side... because I would find the same ending point. You know, friends? The answer is right that I've arrived at the same seashore that God wanted me to stop to talk with Him before the Great Sailing.

Now, I still do not know how about the next journeys.. but 1 thing I know that God is with me... near by my side... to keep me safe on my great journeys of life.

Thanks Father... it's just what I can say...

Friends, how about your life? Still confuse at the trijunction to choose your way?

Let's come to Him... and hear what He wants you to choose.

He's with you all. so don't be afraid!!!

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Year to Year with Hillsong Live Album

I just want to share about my experiences related with Hillsong Live Album on this posting.

2010 - A Beautiful Exchange

God gave me great experience in Dec 2010 when I was sick... it's painful. But I could feel how more painful Jesus when He was crucified.. and how The Father felt deep pain in His heart when saw Jesus, His Son was crucified. 



2009 - Faith + Hope + Love

New and Great Experience God had prepared for me since the end of 2008. He taught me about Faith. He spoke to me on Jan 8th, 2009 to have new dimension of faith. In March, the great war came... my mother got a cancer... but I saw God's hand upon me and my fam. Hope and Love were mixed together with others experiences in that year.

2008 - This is Our God

God revealed His Self in this year. I had new experiences in my ministry in another city where I had been there before with my leader in Education Dept.. but that year I had to be the leader... Learned to be a leader where made me full depending on God. I felt He guided me to speak, to think, to act. God reminded me about a vision that I got a year before when I was praying and fasting. It's about a big house which I had to rebuild. I felt that it was the church that I ministered. Great year for me and something brought me came back to that city at the end of that year... a statement that I said to God..."I don't wanna be easy come and easy go".

2007 - The Saviour King

This was the year where God gave me a vision through a leader in a camp of praying and fasting. It's about 3 cards. I asked God the meaning. In the morning of the second day of that camp, God showed me the middle card. It's King Card. He said the meaning that He's not just a Saviour for my life, but He's The King Who Reigns all of my parts of life.

And the other 2 cards, He opened when I was in the city of heroes...Surabaya. Both cards were Jacks ( "J" Card)... God said that He's Jesus Who always by my sides, on my right and on my left... He's Emmanuel... God's with us.

2006 - Mighty to Save

He showed His Mighty in everything I did... New Experiences in ministry I had. That year I felt that was so hard to achieve my dream. Because 1 of my best friend was released to go to a city where she had a burden to serve. I thought I had done all kind of ways to share and to achieve my dream in Education. But, God saved me from the wrong way I almost chose. And now, I can thank God for what I am right now. Bigger capacities than I've ever thought. And great presents I got in that year... ticket of Hillsong United Concert in Jakarta (Tennis Indoor-Senayan) and a return ticket to Singapore.

2005 - God He Reigns

God taught me to surrender and offer all of my hopes, dreams and goal setting... I got a big struggle in that year. Many changes happened in my job, ministries and family. I saw His greatness that I might have a grace to build my house with my aunt, though we could by getting the money from bank loans. It wasn't easy, but God made all things enough. He Reigns.

2004 - For All You've Done

The year of revival in my life, my financial, and revival for one of my leader... where we could have a better relation and life changing. God answered my prayers, my struggle. For He has done many things in my life through teaching me to have a good and right responses in facing every challenge.

2003 - H O P E

Where many changes happened, many new things I had to learn. And He's still the HOPE of my life to pass all things. Conflict of characters is a part of my school of life. And God always help me to win it. It happened in 2003 where there're new systems built in my office. 2 special things happened, in January where I could minister Korean people for almost 1 week and in October, I got an opportunity to go to Bali to attend Women's Conference, 10/40 Window Conference and 1 year Memoriam of Bali Bomb. Great!!! I met Darlene and Hills' team in Bali.

Oh yes, this album was the first VCD I bought. I love it so much.

Psalms 84

Blessed are those who dwell in Your House,

they are ever praising You

Blessed are those whose strength is in You,

whose hearts are set on our God

We will go from strength to strength,

until we see You face to face...

2002 - B L E S S E D

Great challenges in my fam.. with my brother and my mom.. but I could pass it.

A challenge in my ministry, too.. where He taught me to have a humble heart.. I am nothing, He's something.

The year where I found my clearer destiny / vision when I sought Him.

I felt so blessed to have experiences with Him in that year. Made me become stronger and stronger woman.

Those are some of my experiences with God which related and blessed by Hillsong Live Album. Actually there are still some of albums that I couldn't tell them right now. They have blessed and given me many inspiration to pass every journey of my life.

2001 - You are my World

2000 - For This Cause

1999 - By Your Side

1998 - Touching Heaven, Changing Earth

1997 - All Things are Possible

and many albums of Hillsong United.

Indeed, I pray for all of you who read this posting to get a blessing from my experiences... hope you'll get the new inspiration to do and to face many things in your journey of life.

God Bless and always be with you all.

Emmanuel.

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My Review of 2010

This is new year. We've just on the 8th day of  2011. Many experiences I have passed in 2010, and of course have new goals for 2011. I learned many things in 2010... Love...Obedience and Trusting God...and How to express Love through Giving. It wasn't easy... but all brought goodness in my life.

Love... I learned how to forgive and how to give. Loving isn't just about feelings, but it talks about DECISION. How to love others like God has loved us first. Maybe it's very easy to speak about it, but when I experienced it, I needed much grace to do it. But... the other side, God taught me to:

Obey and Trust in HIM... Great Year to find... God taught me to full obey and trust Him. Learned to release all of my feeling, hope and love. But I did it freely and could find happiness in my heart after I did it. I just thought that I wanted to obey God, I didn't care what would people think about myself. I felt a brave heart to do it. God spoke to me that I just had a business with Him and He's with my heart. I learned to trust and entrust my life to His Hand. Till the next level came to me in the mid of the year... it's the level of:

GIVING... I learned to obey what God wanted from me. He asked what I hadn't got yet to offer to Him as a sacrifice. It's about money. I got a bonus from office, and He asked me before I got it, He asked me to bless Education Project in Bali. It's amazing thing, and I loved it so much to do it. Beside that, many experiences about giving that He taught me. Lovely...Great...Beautiful...

Those are my experiences in 2010. Three big things that I learned.

How about you?

Let's live our lives with God. It will be more beautiful. 

Blessings.

...Mother...

I don't know how to write it... for more than one week i was at the end of the rope... I got sick that made me couldn't do many things... It happened at the beginning of this month... but, I could learn something through this manner.

--at Depok Beach, Parangtritis, Jogjakarta--

I could see how my mother very loved me and she took care of me everytime I needed a help... though she wasn't well, too... she tried her best to take care of me...

When I cried out because of the deep pain, I saw her couldn't do anything... she only looked at me and prayed for my health... but I could feel her love for me...

Through this experience, I could make a reconciliation with her, too... And something better started since then in our relationship.

There's a problem emotion between us.. I knew it exactly.. it's caused since I was in her womb. When she knew that she was pregnant, she tried to make abortion through many ways... But fortunately, God's hands were upon me, protected me from every kind of medicine or any food that she ate to abort me...

She had ever made a reconciliation with me, but not in emotion problem. And actually, I had forgiven her, too...

Praise God, something good happened between us, but so much the price I had to pay...

One day, when I felt very weak, suddenly a voice came in my heart... it said "When i am weak, You make me strong... Let your spirit be on fire and serve the Lord... For this reason we never become discouraged. Even though our physical being is gradually decaying, yet our spiritual being is renewed day after day."

After heard these statements I got up and sat and prayed... God spoke to me a few things.... He reminded me about His Sacrifice, that He had taken and healed all my disease through the cross. I could feel how was the Father's Heart when saw Jesus was crucified... it was my mother's heart when she saw me cried out because of that very deep pain, too.

I just could thanked God for every situation He has allowed in my life.

Thanked God for still having a good mother beside me...

I don't know what would be happened if I was alone at home feeling that deep pain... ^^

So... Love and Express our Love to whom we Love for along they are still with us... ^^

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..Love in Life Practice..



How great were my days where I'd been allowed to face many things in my family. It happened in my home. It started since the end of last month, where my mom and I were surprised by a news about my uncle. It suddenly happened by the SMS that we received, that my uncle and his wife and one of his daughter wanted to come to my home. It's caused of the job interview that must be followed by my uncle in Jakarta. Since then, we knew that my uncle and family had been moved from Batam to Semarang.

The first week of December, my uncle started his new job and stayed at my home. Actually, I was struggling to accept him in my house, because he's smoking. Beside that, he and his family have made my big fam angry since the first time they got married. It's like a habit... if they were happy, they forgot us, the family in Jakarta... but if they were in trouble, they remembered and asked for help from us, especially from my mom and me.

I've ever angry about it, too... but I learned to forgive them... learned to bless them with everything I could give... I've ever thought about it, and I felt proud that I could give my hand to them. Though I couldn't give much money, I could bless them. When they were at my home, I tried to do the same... though my mom, bro and I couldn't accept some of their deeds and habits.

It's easy to say the word "LOVE"...

but it isn't easy to make it into "Reality"...

This is what God has taught me for along this month...

When Christmas came a few days ago, God reminded me about it... "LOVE"

Christmas talks about Love & Forgive...

Both of those words have the same meaning behind...

It's about GIVING...

God has teaches us to Give His Love and ForGive all of our sins...

So, we have to do the same that He has taught to us...

Difficult or Easy?

The answer is Just Do It !!!  Obey !!!

Let's make Love isn't just one beautiful word...

but...

Let's make it into Reality in Life Practice...

Have a joyful journeys with Him

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